Rewind to high school.
If you?re reading this article, likely some time that has passed between now and then. You probably have a good idea of how you were viewed. Maybe you wanted everyone to understand that you had a great sense of humor, but now you realize that while people wanted to like you, (and even thought you were funny some of the time) overall, your antics got in the way of class privileges and even friendships. You see now that you were the class clown.
Perhaps you have a gift for empathy and were genuinely mature beyond your years, you recognized the difficulties and pain that your teachers went through as well as what made them happy; you wanted to show that you were a nice person and were focusing on the right things and now you know you actually were (and still are) thought of as the teacher’s pet. Perhaps you wanted people to know you were tough and you became the insecure bully to those who watched?